elgeeko’s blog

I installed a new automatic lie detector on my blog. Kinda interested to see if it works.

Today, for some reason, I am fixated on my inability to flirt. I trace this back to my experience as a popular student in high school. Though small-town northern Utah offered ample dating opportunities, I never fully adjusted to the environment. In retrospect, I can not imagine myself having been well-adjusted to, well, a kinda screwed up place. I am reminded of Jiddu Krisnamurti’s assertion that it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.

My fixation is not with the past, but with how I completely lose sense of self, presence, and decency when talking to a beautiful woman. At least I am able to converse without launching a flatus. It’s not a confidence thing - I have no doubt in my abilities in… well… tasks relevant to the topic of dating. Alas, there is some switch inside my brain that melts away any of its useful functionality, and it’s triggered by beautiful women.

Lie Count: 5